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i dont like this rasa..argghh!!shit! ok..i admit that i miss that moment..really2 miss it..dunno why suddenly i feel like this..can i cry baby? NO!! TIKA YOU CANNOT CRY ANYMORE ABOUT THE PAST THING! be strong girl..you can face it..aarrgghh!! can anyone explain  to me why must i feel like this? do i love him?the answer is NO..do i miss him? the answer is still NO..erm,maybe YES..actually i dont love him or miss him but i just lonely..lonely make me back to the past and again make me remember the past worst thing that i ever had..please dear..anyone please make my life not lonely again..i'm begging...please.. )= now,i cannot sleep..and now,i already cry )'=